twilight afternoon

You were staring to the brown skies
and I was lean on beside

We were laughing out of our mind
blowing all the inside up

twilight afternoon...

and the night comes
and the speed goes fast

and this weak defense broke apart

-September 4th-

perfect

and now you become exactly the one that i want on exactly at the time i do not want you to be the one anymore.


should you keep trying to be another person, oh that's really not so u

should i keep pretending that i am not tired of keeping you



(090909 ~ after 5 months of the fairy tales)

man have their own way to show their feelings, with meaningful silence..and man with his ego...




and i really do not understand T_T

guilty pleasure

I found myself having a hard time putting this feeling into words. Time after time i spend to googling and finally found the infinite definition in two words.


- it is something that you enjoy that you think you should not enjoy, either for personal reasons or because of the possibility of others reaction
- it is something that would ruin us if our friends knew about it
- it is something that I pretend to like ironically, but secretly really like
- it is something one enjoys despite feeling guilt for it.



it is a guilty pleasure.

quote of the day

The virgin girl appreciates the simplicity of life.

She has good religion and respects it appropriately.
She always looks after her prestige without do everything embarrassing.

(march 09, unknown sources)

25 things u dont know about me

RULES:
Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you, make it as long or short as you want.
At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged.
You have to tag the person who tagged you.
If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you…(or maybe because I'm obsessed with ur life.. hahaha)


1. I have a dream to travel around the world
2. I feel uneasy for me to control my emotion
3. I have so much interests that you have no idea about
4. I always think being a politician is cool.
5. I like japanese food so much, trying to make it at home but fail :)
6. I learn french to be closer with a guy.in fact am not even close to him
7. I forgive but don't forget.
8. People said that i am smart actually i just work harder
9. It is very easy to influence me because i can believe someone easily
10. I'm easily crying for some reasons.
11. I like to shower at nite
12. I eat so fast. the fastest among my friends.
13. Sometimes i am out of control and it's embarrassing me in public
14. I dont celebrate valentine, but i do love guy who take me to dinner at that night
15. Sometimes i sounds like a boy
16. people told me i am so serious about life, that's right, that's my dad biggest influences
17. I am always do my best to be the best big sister
18. I used to be a sanpei ( teacher ) in Karate - Club when i was in junior high school
19. i dont know why, all guy i have crush for, is started with initial A ?
20. I dont like anything unorganized. that's why i like planning
21. I love surprises,
22. i like music and remember the lyric easily, sometimes i imagine to direct the music video
23. I am good at calculation.
24. I hate ignorance and underestimance
25. I always wish have a guy who propose me under the moon of Paris, hehehehe :)

dream

honestly. if u believe in your dream, whether it is good and bad it would happen in your life. if u have one BIG dream, come and go for it ! dont give up! at the end if it wont happen, well, at least u try ur best :)

i have a passion and dream to see the world

yeah. even since i was a lil girl. i did have many traveling books. i just want to see the world outside there. which i havent live before.

and i was remembering, 4 years ago, choosing which college to go. and financially supported malaysia has been choosen as the cheapest country to study.

i know somebody said something bad about malaysia : the culture thief. but seriously what i have experience in malaysia now. have open my eyes about people in indonesia. dear indonesian, we did have much more beautiful country and culture, but where it gone?

finally.. fter graduated, i have a pathway to realize this dream. i have been choosen as Exchange Participant for AIESEC International Internship Exchange Program. yey ! world waiting for me... and i cant wait to see them !

i was over excited. even i havent found the right match for the company and which country that i am going to. i was over blessed by god, my mighty Allah the only one :)

well that's short story about my dream. and for u all i just wanna said : dare to have big dream and do ur best to realize it !